OUT OF MY MIND

...with boredom!!! Today has been the longest day ever. I've cleaned the house, made 4 pendants for necklaces, washed loads of clothes even had a big long bath to take up some of the afternoon. Don't know what it is about Sundays.

Definitely need to get out more. Think next Sunday or the next again I will go to the seaside or the country.

Beginning to get worried in case it is me that's boring and not everything around me. I really hope it isn't me - I'm looking forward to having fun for the remaining 140 years of my life.

Methinks I need a holiday.

On a random note, how great is that Only Ones song (Another Girl Another Planet) on the Vodafone advert - nothing like it for cheering me up and making me sing at the top of my voice, although it does piss me off slightly that someone (can't remember who) borrowed the CD I had with it on and never gave me it back.

YOU SEE THE FUNNIEST THINGS...

...when you're shopping in dead end places like Grangemouth!
Went to the gym today at lunchtime and when I came out I realised I needed something for tea tonight and some shower gel and bubble bath. Well I couldn't really be bothered going into town cos I knew it would be really busy , so I thought to myself "I'll just nip into Grangemouth since I'm here anyway".

So the rest of it's just blah blah blah normal stuff, until I was in the checkout at farmfoods buying a pizza for tea. In front of my is this middle aged bloke - just an average guy - mis-matched clothes etc. After he bought his stuff he went over to the next checkout which was empty, and proceeded to try to cram his farmfoods bag into this little dinky embossed versace paper bag!! Of course that started to give me the giggles - bag must've been empty, cos even though I'm not into versace at all, if I'd paid an arm and leg for a piece of poorly made clothing there's no way in the world I'd be trying to shove frozen pizza and ice cream on top of it.

I guess the moral of this story (if there is one) is why???????

THE WEEKEND'S HERE

Saturday at last. I was so tired yesterday - ended up sleeping for about 12 hours. Yesterday at work wasn't particularly exciting - I was the only one from our team in - in fact the whole of the upstairs level was like a morgue.

Managed to get black flipflops yesterday, although I don't like them as much as my poor dead ones. Hopefully they'll be ok, and I might find another pair before I go on holiday or whilst I'm on holiday.

Was going to drag my fat arse off to the gym first thing this morning, but since I overslept it's looking like being around lunch time by the time I get there. Then back to do boring housework-type stuff - sometimes I wonder what has happened to me - life just seems so dull (really can't face that it's because I'm older now and it will be like this ever more). I'm sure things will be different if I ever get the chance to live abroad.

Eating was really good this week - no blips at all (well apart from 2 percy pigs but they're only 25 cals each, so a 50 cal blip over 7 days is ok). Still not lost much weight though.

Better head off now or I'll never get to that gym...

THINGS TO DO & GOALS

Ok, so I've been on a bit of a downer for the last couple of weeks - nothing too bad - just a few crappy things happening at once - don't bother asking cos I won't tell you (and if you're one of the 2 people who do know, Hi - didn't realise you read this).
To cheer myself up I'm going to make a list of all the things I want to do in the next couple of months. Also adding a couple of goals - may as well make them public cos then I can beat myself up more when I don't achieve em.

Things to look forward to

Going on holiday - not sure where, not sure when but will be in the next 6 or 7 weeks and really looking forward to it

LoudquietLoud at Film Festival

Rocky Horror Show in October - need to rem to speak to Fee to see if she's up for it

Primal Scream in Oct or Nov (can't remember which) - need to get someone to go but that shouldn't be a problem considering the greatness of P S

Deffo getting tickets for T in the Park 2007 with any luck

Things I must do this year

Like myself more - stop thinking I'm a big frumpy lump

Go out more - need to recapture my youth

Go on more dates - it's fun after the initial panic before going

Get a nice stockpile of jewellery & stuff made up - just soooo lazy

Go to the gym more than twice a week

Swim twice a week (at least)

Stop picking skin off fingers - terrible habit

Take empties to bottle bank - they seem to breed when I'm in bed

Finish stripping the hall so I can get it papered and new carpet down

Try to walk around said carpet instead of along it

Give out Christmas cards - even if it's only for family & best friends - if I plan this early enough may be able to persuade someone to write them for me

That's all I can think of at the moment but sure I'll think of more soon.

BACK TO WORK

Back to work today after a few days off. Was ok being back though. Bumped into M at lunchtime so dragged her up to my office to get the goss on her holiday. Everyone said I had a good tan, which was nice.

Have sore eyes today - not sure what is causing it - I did put baby lotion on my face earlier this morning so it's maybe just a reaction to that, although it seems to have lasted a long time (about 10 hrs).

Got a Spanish group meeting tonight then will pop in and see G if she's in.

Still lamenting the demise of my poor flipflops - had to wear shoes today and it was too nice a day for that (plus my heels keep sticking in the stupid doormat at work).

BROKEN

Now, I'm not normally a materialistic person, or even someone who becomes particularly attached to things, but my black flipflops (which I wear everywhere) broke on Saturday. I loved them so much and they were so comfortable and just sort of went with everything - I feel completely lost without them. Had a quick hunt today for new ones - not looking particularly good though. I did see one pair which were ok, but they were made up of lots of little strips so not sure how they'd be on the blister front. So if any of my bloggy readers (if there are any) sees some which are black leather, with black soles, not too flat - 1.5" to 2" wedge - rubber soled (don't like the hard wedge ones) with a toe post (see, I'm not fussy really!!) PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know.

Apart from grieving about dead shoes, not much else has happened. Sat outside in the sun for a bit too long yesterday and got a headache - not like me, but I was probably dehydrated as on Sat I only drank one cup of hot orange then everything else was alcohol. Headache gone now (although cheeks and nose slightly pink).

FAFFING ON FRIDAY

It's been that sort of day where I've intended on working wonders but actually achieved v. little. Thank goodness I'm still off until Tuesday. Managed to get some trousers and tops yesterday although one pair of trousers and a top will need to go back because they're too big - sort of thought they would be but the shop didn't have my size.

Got F coming round for dinner tomorrow - should be a really nice day - we're going to do something in the afternoon too - either sit out the back with a bottle of wine if the weather's good or head to the pub for a couple (I've already told her I can't drink more than 3 or 4 in ther afternoon or I won't want to cook dinner at night). Will be good to catch up - need to clear all the shit out the dining room.

Must remember to call G & D and see if one of them can fit my car stereo - it's driving me nuts having no music (only remembered about this when I saw it in the dining room earlier!!)

Eating this week has been really really good although weight loss has been poor (it's bound to come off eventually). I did have an icecream on Wednesday night, but I had sort of wanted it all day, so only had a carrot for dinner.

That's about it really - nothing much been happening to me. Looking forward to getting a holiday sorted soon though. Really must make an effort to get hall finished too - started off all enthusiastic a month or so ago and have now totally lost interest.

TODAY'S ACHIEVEMENTS

Did so well on diet today i still can hardly believe it - have had 28 cherries (not 30 cos I ate them in batches and like an even number), a small roll and 4 slices of wafer thin ham. I still have an allowance I can have for dinner, but I have a feeling I won't even need it tonight.

Not achieved much else though - faffed around for an house since I got home from work - got tons of stuff to do but can't really be bothered - will maybe do some stuff after I've had a bath and a drink of hot orange.

Glad it's Friday tomorrow and will be even gladder when it is Saturday as I'm getting my hair cut - sick of the sight of myself atm.

ROLLERCOASTER

Why do I seem to have so many mood swings in one day. I seem to go from happy as a cherry (don't really know if cherries are happy or not but I love them and they make me happy) to depths of despair and back again within the space of a couple of minutes (sometimes even seconds). It doesn't really bother me, but the lows aren't particularly nice.

Have given myself a couple of good challenges today though, which is one positive. One of them is a diet one - I've really lost my way over the past 4 or 5 years, but for some reason over the past week or so, I seem to have rediscovered the determination I had in my teens and 20s - hehe so if you're ever near me and hear a rumbling noise it'll just be my empty tummy.

Film Festival schedule was released today - really looking forward to loudquietloud (even if I have to go alone since Miss JP absolutely refuses to go).

MUMPS & GRUMPS

I know this is really unimportant but today for the first time since last summer I wore big earrings - couldn't get home quick enough to get bloody things out - they look lovely but are quite heavy.

Went shopping to Stirling with M today. I wasn't looking for anything, but managed to get a hat for Lou's wedding - must ask her if I'm meant to be going alone or taking a friend (must find out how it works when it is just your name on invite; it seems so rude to ask - any advice would be appreciated). M didn't get anything, but we had a nice day (even though I was bored stupid after 30 mins - luckily she knows my shopping tolerance so expected it).

Popped into Pivos for a few drinks (well M was driving so could only have one) and that revived me a bit, specially since I hadn't had any brekkie or lunch.

F & C meant to be coming for dinner & drinks 2nite, but Fee is ill so just me and Clairebear - will be good to catch up on her honeymoon tales and stuff.